"You do not have a soul, you are a soul. You have a body. "- C.S. Lewis

I told you from the beginning that I was a monster. Please know I never wanted to hurt you. I do still love you.

I always have been and alway will be a selfish terrible person.

Crying myself to sleep again. I thought I was stronger than this.

Spending another night alone. Sad and miserable

I don’t know if I’m supposed to talk to you, or what to even do. I pray everyday that you are okay

I’ve been sick to my stomach all day, I pray you are okay, and that what i did was right. I hope you can see that all I want is for you to be okay

I hope you can forgive me, I just need to protect you and make sure your safe

I hate being this sad and alone

I haven’t been able to sleep a whole night through since this all startedĀ 

Ive lost the best thing i ever i had in my entire lifeĀ